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Nightmare. Haven't had one of those that straight up gave me uncomfortable feelings.

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It was about a colleague who used to be fairly close and friendly. One day, i was scolded without reason (or unclear reason) and he chose words with the intention to hurt. So i kept my distance afterwards.

This is a nightmare about that colleague.

For some reason, i found myself lost in a familiar-looking neighbourhood.

For some reason, i found him and his car by the road. Odd, since he does not own a car.

For some reason, despite our quarrel, i decided to walk towards his car and got in expecting a ride out of the current neighbourhood.

I couldn't recall the words he said but i know that they were meant to hurt. I got out of the car and left without saying anything.

Just like how i would have act if it's in reality.

Even in the dreamscape, I've made the decision to walk separate ways.

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There wasn't a doubt that this "estranged" colleague is part of the reason why i decided to leave my current job.

That day after our quarrel, the team dynamic changed. The clique was no more, in my opinion.

I started to alter my lunch hours. I started to have lunch just by myself. Started coming to office earlier. Stopped having breaks and long breakfasts.

That was almost a year ago. That was when i clearly felt, it's not going to be long before my last days in my company.

If the outbreak didn't happen, i would have left way back in March. That is what i believe.

Nevertheless, here we are now.

I have moved my foot forward.

Now i just have to move the other foot and start my walk.

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I've finished the third and final season of Oregairu on Friday. And i really want to talk about that. So much that i decide that the next post will be just about that.

Ta-ta for now.

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