Resolutions of Life

It has been really long since the last time i donned my office attire. At this moment when the event of the day is already over, the decision to wear formal was not exactly needed. Went to the Embassy today, or at least the entrance to the Embassy. I have to say that i had expectations to be going in the Embassy to turn in my document so i was a bit disappointed that it didn't went the way i wanted. When i reached the Embassy, i was directed by security to an old man to the side. Consular service was written at a signed stuck to the counter's window...but the old man whom i was directed to was standing outside of the security room like i was. He was handling some paperwork at the narrow aisle of the counter. "Do you have an appointment?" He asked. "No. I am here to turn in some documents." "For JET?" He knew. That saved me from asking more questions. I nodded and he said that he can take my package in for me. I handed it over and there's that f...

Pardon the long absence. Been out-of-work really meant that there is not much to talk about since nothing is really happening. So i wait till i have a bunch of things to talk about. --- Last day of November. Preparation of JET is done. In a few hours i will be getting the last piece of the application package that i need: My professor's reference. There was not much communication between him and myself since the last post. I tried not to bother him about it. It was at the midpoint of November that i thought of sending him a reminder, when he asked for some more time due to his own business. Not that i cannot understand, since it is the exam period now. Tomorrow i will be heading to the Embassy to turn in my application. Then it will be the waiting game. --- The past 7-8 weeks weren't all about the preparation. In fact, it took a way less minute portion of the time than i had liked. Though, ultimately, it wouldn't have mattered if i am done since i still need to wait for my ...

It is already the 6th of October. That means the last day of work was already over. Nothing much was said. Nothing much was done. I tried my best to avoid speaking to much with my now ex-colleagues regarding anything. They tried to give me gifts. They tried to get me out for lunch. I rejected them all. Just so that i don't feel the regret getting heavier. --- When i made the decision to leave, i thought that the remaining of this year can just be a good break from work. That i will start looking for it next year, just as a backup to JET while it is being processed in the background. However, just Saturday and i already felt pretty bored. There is this constant, creeping feeling that i should be doing something constructive; that i can't just let go and relax for the year fully. Weird, considering that my lifestyle didn't really change that much since the circuit breaker was implemented. It's just the formal exit from the company. I'll most likely look for some part-...

 I said that i wanted to talk about the latest season of Oregairu so i am going to do just that. --- I completed the entire season on the Friday the final episode was released. It was really nice to see Hachiman ending up with Yukino even though the light novel already revealed that in the final volume last year. A lot of people were reviewing that the first 10 episodes of the season were poorly adapted. I supposed i will only find that out when the english version of the novel is released and completes in 2022. The first episode really started off from the cliffhanger that season 2 left off. I only watched it in May so the memory of the final scene was still fresh but the previous season was released in 2015. That makes it approximately 5 years to this period. Despite the heavy atmosphere the previous season ended on, the new season vibed it back into the positives. It felt a bit odd but as the season's first episode, it felt necessary. There were a few scenes with Saki whom was l...

Nightmare. Haven't had one of those that straight up gave me uncomfortable feelings. --- It was about a colleague who used to be fairly close and friendly. One day, i was scolded without reason (or unclear reason) and he chose words with the intention to hurt. So i kept my distance afterwards. This is a nightmare about that colleague. For some reason, i found myself lost in a familiar-looking neighbourhood. For some reason, i found him and his car by the road. Odd, since he does not own a car. For some reason, despite our quarrel, i decided to walk towards his car and got in expecting a ride out of the current neighbourhood. I couldn't recall the words he said but i know that they were meant to hurt. I got out of the car and left without saying anything. Just like how i would have act if it's in reality. Even in the dreamscape, I've made the decision to walk separate ways. --- There wasn't a doubt that this "estranged" colleague is part of the reason why i...

It has been 2 weeks since the last post. Lots of things have changed. As i mentioned in my last post as the ending, i have shortened my hair. To start, i only kept my hair as a reminder to be resolved this time when trying to cut myself away from the company. The day i handed the letter over, i went to a hairdresser when the day ended. I have taken that step forward. --- I thought i was prepared enough for this but when i was looking over my documents i realised that i may not have been keeping up with the handing over. So i need to continue with this for a bit more. While the letter is out and i have been getting better in the head, there are still some tasks to complete before i can call it an end. Now there's only 2 weeks left before the last day. It's just waiting for that day to happen now. I can think about what's next afterwards.

I know it is the last day of August so i kind of had some expectations to talk about career-related stuff but from my last post till today, i've jumped into the rabbit hole known as V-tubers. The hole was wide and deep enough that i have almost lost any kind of interest in anime...though now that i think about it, it could be just the then-current series i was watching to be too "out of my taste". More importantly, i am amazed at how much entertainment i am deriving from their content. It brings me back to the beginning of when i started watching other genres of anime. I can understand why people watch them with so much dedication now. So that's that for now. I expect that the next time i update this place...my hair is shortened.

Pay's here. Along with the performance bonus that was delayed plus the small increment i got from the promotion. I noticed that i didn't get any normal increment, just the ones from the promotion. I guess i reached the scale where i am at the next grade...which meant that the promotion and increment is just formality. Still, even with the increments, somehow i found myself having the lowest payout out of the 3 years i got. I don't really care about whether it is low or not but the notion that it has been dropping is an indicator that the economy isn't doing well. No surprises there, COVID's wrecking countries. This is possibly the highest amount of money i can expect to have for a while. From now on, it is going to be mainly financial management until next year, when i tender in 2 week's time. I don't expect to have work for the rest of the year and will be using that time to prepare for JET application instead. I will also take the time to do some other thi...

 Today is probably the turning point that i was looking forward to. However, not everything went accordingly to how i wished it. For one, i did not expect myself to break down and just cry uncontrollably in front of my manager. The other, i also did not expect my manager to be crying in front of me too. However, with the day passed, the intentions were revealed. All that is left now is the countdown to the end of the current phase. Nothing can stop this now.

When i was informed of my promotion last week, all i thought of was "How untimely." There's no stopping what's about to come anymore. I am already so disconnected from my current career that i am just not caring about anything about work anymore. Bare minimum it is until my last day...but i guess i should put in some effort since the letter is still with me. --- National Day was yesterday. People got together virtually and celebrated. It was a rather normal day for me. Except that i went to the mall to buy some sushi because i was feeling like it. I haven't been to the mall for the longest time. Coronavirus aside, i usually go there for video games. Since recently i've been really out of it, i haven't been playing games much aside from some short burst types to be played on my PC. Since i planned to leave my job, i also think it through more thoroughly in my head before i spend on anything. Haven't bought any new games for my Switch. Didn't really ...

Let's talk about anime again. --- Recently i've not been watching anything romance-related. It's all the cutesy stuff. I've come to learn the term - Cute Girls Doing Cute Things, or CGDCT. Watashi Ni Tensei Ga Maiorita! is a good example. Absolutely loved the university girl taking care of 3 elementary school girls. Also got into watching sports anime but featuring cute girls too. Shakunetsu no Takkyou Musume , Bakuon and Long Riders . Didn't expect myself to watch this genre of anime in the past. In all honesty. --- A little burnt out watching animes but still enjoying some series. Hopefully i can resume watching romance related anime now. Oregairu S3 is out but i think i will wait till the entire season is aired before starting. Meh. Short update.

It has been a week of dread since payday. Since i knew that i had to wait for another month. The past few days had been excruciating. Work requests are getting worse. ...but now i am feeling oddly peaceful. I've accepted that the next payday will be the last. Accepted that now i will just offer my cooperation. I've put what i have currently at the back of my head and mind. I am just focusing on what's to come. That said, i have been researching the next few steps. Partly scared because there seems to be a lot of things to prepare for. Scared because i might not be able to proceed because of the various reasons. ...but i am also feeling somewhat excited at the possibilities that can happen. Starting to look forward with anticipation of what's next. I think with this newfound excitement, i can persevere through this last month. I hope nothing much more will happen in the current work.

Anything that can go wrong will go wrong. --- I should have already known. The signs were there. No letter for how much we are getting. No message from the supervisor. The payment is delayed. Another month of waiting. Yesterday was day 1 of another month of waiting and i am already feeling really depressed about it. Hopefully, it is just going to be 1 month of delay. Or else, this next 30 days is going to be a waste.

I am not a "kind" person...but nor am i "evil". I am just one of the many people who would perform acts of kindness every now and then. Especially when it is convenient to myself. Seldom going out of the way to do so. Acts of kindness performed in convenience is not true kindness. That's why i do consider myself not a "kind" person. However, push comes to a shove, i will often prefer to put myself in the tough spot over putting others on it. It's an easier burden to bear compared to the moral burden that would be the opposing choice. On that case, i do consider myself to be more altruistic than most. I am capable of making snap decisions that sacrifices myself over others if those are the only two choices. Good or bad. Kind or evil. Regardless of either intentions, acts of kindness still makes me feel nice. Sometimes, happy, even. ... ...which is why i guess i am really broken now. --- It was yesterday. Heavy rain in the morning. ...

Election in the country has passed. Nothing much changed for the ordinary countryman. Nothing as much as one would hope for, anyways. At the very heart of political affairs, the ordinary countryman has little to play or work with. It is like a very big board for chess but the ordinary people do not exactly make pawns themselves. It takes literal hundreds and thousands of people before they can form a movable pawn...and even then, they do not have the freedom of moving how they like. Pawns can only move forward, by the hands of the player. They can move diagonally when capturing...but in a game when no players bother with capturing, there's only the forward. Just like the flow of time. Just like the flow of life of the ordinary countryman. And we are back to the ordinary flow of how our life moves. In the middle of the pandemic. The new normal. --- I am three days away from the final, or second-to-final paycheck. This is the last stretch. Hopefully i will make the ...

Event horizon. The point at which an event will happen without fail. The point of no return. --- It's July. Been 3 months since i resurrect this blog and become more active in posting. Been 3 months since plotting and planning my resignation. We are finally at the month of recompense. The month of payout. I am counting down. Though, still deciding on whether to throw the letter at the start of the month or the day after getting the next pay. We'll see. The important thing is to get past this month first. --- Resignation is the first important step. ...but i cannot forget what comes next. Like i mentioned, i am single-minded in looking for an escape overseas. Maybe an adventure but i don't want it to just be a holiday getaway. Something longer. Something more permanent. The lockdown is slowly easing everywhere. It is about time i start seriously planning. It will be months of inactivity after the letter that i have to endure. But i have to. --- ...

Drama here. Drama there. It's really scary these days, especially these days, to see people we used to looked up to or admired or even respected...to be someone darker. A lot darker.

The thing that separates me from the majority. Nah, i doubt i have such a thing going for me. --- Lockdown is easing up but i am still working from home. It's better for me anyways. Nowadays i am unmotivated to the point that i don't check my work mails daily anymore. I just do it when i know that there is something going on that involves me. I say that but i keep getting involved in things i am not sure why i would be. Guess my boss thought i was too free. It's to the extent that some days, i would get so many phone calls, the caller would get the idea i am unhappy by the third call. Even if i did not change my tone. Even if i did not flare up. Still looking forward to quit soon. Even if the wait to that day is torturous. ...but i am sure it will be painful for some. Painful the way i hope they would feel.

Weird dream. I was in some kind of resort/theme/amusement park. It was during morning? Or was it the evening? The colour of the set was yellowish orange. I seemed to be waiting for some kind of event...but after some time, i took a walk around the place. It has a tropical feeling to the place. Like a water park. Halfway through, i saw a friend walking towards my direction. He was a colleague who left my current workplace a little more than half a year ago. As i was raising my hand to wave, he turned to his right into a shop. I have no idea what it meant. ...and i woke up. It was 4.30am.

Hmm. Mmm. Mmm... --- Honestly, i came in here blind today. Don't really have much in my head that i think is worthy of writing down here. I'll let the quality of the post be the judge of that. Let's talk body and health. Both of which are going to hell because of the lockdown. I haven't been active physically since the lockdown began. At least before, i could visit the gym but at home when everyone is around, there is not a lot of things i can do without disturbing others. Noticeably, i can see myself getting fatter and my chin is starting to sag a little. Daily trips to get food also got me noticing that i am perspiring much easier. So the talk about diet being the top priority is not as true, considering that i am eating (slightly) healthier and skip dinner entirely. This diet style has been for months. I am really used to not having dinner now. Cleaned my room 2 days ago. Spent only half an hour moping it and i can feel my lower back ache. The aching ...

Ok, i'll do just Anime and Manga stuff for today. Fun stuff only. --- I think after watching Hidan no Aria AA, i became really, really fascinated with the Shoujo Ai genre, or love between girls. Feels like the cutesy stuff is kind of what i need. ...but the real cake was Maria-same ga Miteru . Or the Virgin Mary Watches Over You . It's a kind of old anime from 2006, with the setting in a religious all-girls school as a Slice of Life type of anime. Honestly, i wouldn't be able to imagine myself watching this kind of anime in the past. Yet now that i finished all 4 seasons, i find myself wanting more of it. The sister-love dynamic between the elder Sachiko and the younger Yumi really grew on me. Ano Natsu de Matteru , or Waiting for You that Summer is another interesting romance anime that features love between a visiting alien and a teenage boy, with a centipede-like love triangle . Except it is not really a triangle. Girl A loves Guy B and vice versa, Girl C loves G...

Things that can go wrong, will go wrong. --- That's about how i feel today. I really don't want to work at where i am working now. Pfffft.

All it took was one thing to make me waver. --- I attended an interview 2 months ago at the Education Institute for a position of Software Developer for an unknown database. Then i was ignored for 2 months and naturally thought i flunked the interview. I made my current plan of running overseas with the thought that i can forget about that position. ...so when they came back with a reply asking for a follow-up interview. I shared my plan and i think that was it. Now they'll definitely have to go for someone else. ...but it certainly didn't feel good to have people tell you often plans don't always go the way we want...even if i know that that's mostly what will be happening. The fear of failure amplified. ...but we still have time. I will do what i can.

Not everything is going to go as smoothly as i had hoped they will be. --- Posts are slowing down. Mainly because change is slowing. Settling into this norm of sedating myself with anime while occasionally going to work to fulfill what only i can do. Outside of that, my routine is quite set in stone. I sleep and wake early, take simple breakfast and lunches. I have entirely skipped dinner for months now. It wasn't like last year when i started dieting. It's become a habit. I don't feel the urge to take dinner anymore. Mentioned this before but sometimes i skipped breakfast too, though i would compensate with a heavier lunch. --- Did some research on JET. Seems like it is window-based application and opens only towards the end of the year. There are some knitty-gritty details which will be a pain to meet but it's still 5 months away from the application period. There is still time to make adjustments. The pressing issue is probably the certificate of health. ...

Some kind of organisation conference today. Tuned in for about 40 minutes and was bored out of my mind. Shut down afterwards although it is still ongoing now after 4 hours. I did hear rumours about pay and bonus. A hit on the plans but if that is the case, then i don't think i need to hold on till September. That means i need to move everything forward. I also need to start seriously researching on how to apply for the JET programme soon. Mmm.

I had a kind of long dream. Yet i couldn't remember much of it. In the dream, i was in a classroom of a school that i have never been to before. It seems to be influenced by all the anime i have been watching, since the classroom was kind of familiar in the sense that i have seen it in anime before. I remember that i need to take 2 exams in that day. I was studying for the first one but realised that i had forgot about when the first test was studying. I woke up as soon as i tried to remember the where and when is the test held. --- Haven't had a dream that i can recall for a long, long time...

...this is really going to be a anime and manga review blog soon. Well, not really review. I don't talk so much about anything except for my thoughts anyway. --- I finished 3D Kanajo today and it was absolutely touching. I love stories with happy endings and not open endings as to who the protagonist is going to end up with. Also, really stuck with To Love Ru recently but i don't like how the Darkness arc is heavily ecchi. GJ-bu was another surprising hit towards the ending. Again, though, focusing on the (possible) romance of the plot even for Slice of Life animes. --- I think i will leave it at here now.

No progress on real-life matters. As in, exit plan was not planned further than the letter throwing part. If i am going to start taking lessons, i probably need to do some budgeting and finance to see if my current savings can carry me through. If there was ever a point i regret spending so much money on mobile games, it's now. I am kidding. I felt a tinge of regret every time i authorized a purchase. ...at least, this spending habit stopped. My greatest expenditure for the past few months is probably the light novels i have been buying. --- Finished a few more series of anime. Everyday life with Monster Girls is surprising heartwarming and wholesome, if i disregard the overt ecchi scenes they had in. This made me read the manga and i just don't think there's going to be a season 2. Finished Charlotte today. Haven't really had an anime close up the story so it was great. Cried at the last episode. Also finished the manga for Recently, My Sister is Unu...

Eh. I finished Sakurasou no Pet Kanajo this morning. ...bad idea to watch a tear-jerker in the early morning. Cried. --- Then i continued to Amaama to Inazuma (Sweetness & Lightning). It's cute...but i cried every episode to the very end. Decided to read the manga to see if the ship sailed. Cried a bit too. It's weird how i focus on the relationship aspect even though it's something like Senko or Kobayashi's anime. ...but the author left it open-ended...so it's up to the reader's own imagination. I wished they were together...after being through all that. --- It is really easy to summon tears lately. Really easy. As i thought...my mental state is probably... ...somewhere between depression and dementia.

さくら荘のペットな彼女. The Pet Girl of Sakura-sou (Or Sakura mansion). I haven't really finished the anime. However, it is quite a emotional roller-coaster. Beneath the usual Romance x Comedy theme, lies a much more mature one. The idea of being crushed by someone with immense talent, the closer you stay with them. --- There was a time when someone like that exists. I happen to like that person. The fourth person in the sequence. C. Talent aside, she puts in so much hard work it was difficult for me to stay laid back. She shines so bright when she's trying her best that I couldn't help it but decided that i wanted to try and be hardworking too. I hope she's doing well. --- Back to the anime, i really wanted to find the light novel series even though there are tons and tons and tons of negative reviews to the events that happened after the anime. ...but i wanted closure. More important to me, though, was that the ending is what i want. Despite what the ...

Just a bit...but i did caught a glimpse of the path in front. --- As i previously said, my mind has been wondering about the overseas. Japan, specifically. Maybe it is because of the anime marathon but there are other reasons. Language-wise, i have the basics. Cost-of-living is also lower then western countries. So i'm thinking of going for lessons to up my Japanese after i dropped my current job. Be a student for a bit. At least, that'd mean that i won't be a NEET. Brushing up my Japanese proficiency will also help with my other hobbies too. Especially the case with my growing interest in light novels. I also have yet to really give up on teaching. If i really can't make the benchmark for the homeland, i guess i can try going overseas and teaching English. That's about the one thing i am glad with in Singapore - being bilingual already. 2 things to research - Japanese classes and TEFL certifications. The accommodations and travels can wait for a while...

Back to the crunch in some manner. Had to go to work today since i wasn't able to accomplish what i had to do back on Thursday. Might as well run through all of the depressing stuff today. ...but to be truthful the current situation about work is not bad. Short hours and i only have to bother when someone calls. However, getting to work and leaving is a nightmare with the mandatory mask wearing. --- It has been 4 weeks since i started the anime marathons. 4 weeks since i straight up stop caring about work. Actually i have stopped caring about work a long time ago. However, it didn't mean that i stop trying. I guess i meant to say that i have stopped trying. Stopped trying 4 weeks ago. Somewhere deep, deep inside my mind, i really believe that if we are not in the state of lockdown, i would have thrown the letter out and give up. I would have been jobless so i will drift for a bit but the hope was that i could have at least retain or regain some of my ...

Some light-hearted stuff today. --- Finally finished the Nisekoi manga. I was enamored with the plot during my anime marathons but the anime stopped somewhere in the middle of the manga. It has been 5 years since the last anime episode. What was i doing 5 years ago? The one thing i am in awe of is how i didn't bother when the chapters were done releasing. Great and wonderful ending. Before finishing, i found myself eager for a third or new season of the anime. Now, i think i am fine with it as it is. It also managed to bring tears to my eyes, contrary to what i think was possible. It lacks voice acting and moving animations to show for but some plot points are really so good that i was pretty close to crying. ...i am looking forward to the next manga series to read. Juliet of the Boarding School next? --- Tons of my package ordered before the lockdown arrived. First to come was the Fate Stay Night Heaven's Feel Blu-Ray side. The box for both were so well package...

Most of the time, what you are looking for is usually what someone already has. Most of the time, what that is often means nothing to them. --- If you can put two person against each other, or, try to formulate a way to differentiate between two person, i would think that the common answer would be something like: "Who is better between the two?" A way of immediate separation. The best method of letting people know of the differences between two person. You could take this up one level. "What makes the better person, better?" Then comes academical grades, financial prowess, intellectual capabilities and the list goes on. It would keep going as long as one party wants to prove themselves to be the better. All of this is probably normal when you compare. --- If i am to compare myself to others... I'd probably run myself into the ground before the other party even need to say a word. --- This came out worse than i thought...

These hands shall never hold anything dear. --- How long should a person try a particular endeavor before deciding that it is time to give up? Or maybe, in what circumstances should a person decide to finally give up on a dream? Or a goal? Or even if it is something short-termed? Does the length of how long someone tried matter? If you invested more time into making things work, does it mean you should keep at it until you finally succeed? Even if it means spending your entire life and succeeding only at your final moments? I am sure, for some, these are trivial questions. There are probably more people who are willing to keep at it until they fade away than to give up. Personally, i feel that it takes more courage to give up than to relentlessly focus on dreams. The idea of an impossible dream, that effort and time may someday make it possible, is a romantic and noble idea. However, i feel that it also means that one will never try to make things work from other perspe...

The next steps. --- There were some really dark moments i felt sometimes when i report to work. While i was working on my tasks, thoughts emerged and stayed on the surface. "Leave." "What am i even doing here?" Sometimes these thoughts were instantaneously gone. Sometimes, for the morning. Worst, it persisted for the entire day at work. I've become a much more negative person at work. Whilst i don't lash out and keep it in me, there are moments, increasing moments, of me inserting poorly chosen words to stir up the situation and see work diverted. That was more than 18 months ago. I decided in 2018 that i wanted to leave. That was when i decided that i want to be a teacher. What i did not expect was repeated failures to gain entry. And so, from what i know i want to be, it became a job search for the next better thing. Compromise and compromise. Paycuts, scope of work mismatch, no progression prospects. I thought those were things i can compr...

同居人はひざ、時々、頭のうえ Literally translate to [My Roommate on my lap, sometimes, on my head]. A cat anime i watched about 3 weeks ago. In fact, i think it was the second anime i watched since the marathon started. Literally shows the life of a person being changed after getting a cat for the first half of the episode and usually the second replayed the first but with the cat being voiced, showing insight on what the cat was thinking. --- I think it was about 3 weeks ago too. On a Saturday. I went back to the office through the alternate route because of the cohorting. Had to jump a few loops and get keys to enter the designated workplace because no one else was working the Saturday. On my way into the reception, i heard a "Meooow". I looked around and thought nothing of it after finding nothing. Thought i was hallucinating, even. Stayed there for 2 hours before i left the place. "Meow". Again. There must be a cat. I looked upwards and found one above. It was...

Double post yesterday. Wasn't planning on it but had an encounter yesterday that made me wrote whatever i did. --- My addiction to anime continues. For some series, i felt so enamored to the plot and characters that i started to seek original sources that the anime adapted from. First one i wanted to collect is the Yahari Ore no Seishun Love Comedy wa Machigatteiru ( やはり俺の青春ラブコメはまちがっている ), shorted to Oregairu . Story-wise, it is really different from the average love comedy trope that most series in the Romance x School setting conforms to. Currently there are 2 seasons of anime which i completed watching in 2 days and a third season which will begin airing from 10 Apr onwards. I am still conflicted if i wanted to do a weekly catch-up or wait till its full release before viewing. Another thing that blows my mind is how season 3 took 5 years since season 2's end, considering the kind of cliffhanger ending it had. ...so, going for the original adaptation, the light nove...

Dear lady of the distant past, i wonder how do you do? I hope that everything is ok for you, though for me i can't say so too. --- Dear lady of the distant past, was it you i saw today? I secretly hope it is, if not it would mean i am hallucinating. --- Dear lady of the distant past, was it you i saw today? Back of my head, a second thought hope it is not you - for when you turned towards me, i turned my back towards you. --- Dear lady of the distant past, i wonder how do you do? If i did things a little different way back then, i wonder if i would be happy now... --- Dear lady of the distant past, Regardless of time, regardless of place, At my lowest points of life, My thoughts were always of you. ...so no matter what, no matter when, i'd always wish you eternal happiness.

Code Geass ended about 12 years ago. I must have finished the anime probably in 11 or 10 years ago. The ending was sad. I remember crying for a bit. ...so imagine that i found out today, though a random clip on YT because i was rummaging through random anime clips, that in the end Lelounch proposed to C.C. and they ended up being together. In the final scene, as tears welled up in C.C. eyes and her face blushed, so did mine. I am really happy about this. --- 10 years ago. If we visit 10 years ago, exact to the day, it would have been one more week to get enlisted in the army. The situation is not really different from now. Poor relations with the family, no idea of what the immediate future is going to be like. I remembered the cold march i had after reaching the island and leaving my family. I couldn't feel a thing. Actually, i think i might have been a bit happy. Some people around me were crying. Some were just plain sad. Not me. I was fine with it. Happy that ...

This certainly feels like some kind of depression. --- "Marathoning", as i added quotation marks around the word because of the red squiggly line that appeared afterwards, through anime is not something i have done before. In the past, when i strictly limited myself to just watching Gundam animes, i followed the release to a T, essentially only watching one episode weekly and left doing other things. The past 3 weeks though, i had been blitzing through series after series. From the moment i wake up from my sleep, i'd start and it would carry on till the night, save for some breaks here and there for meals and toilet breaks. In fact, the past week has been pretty much just watching animes since i had completed DOOM ETERNAL last week, which used to be a "taking a break" from anime thing for me. Although i have the new Resident Evil 3 Remake pre-ordered and released, i have not really felt like playing that. My previous plan of playing through all versi...

April Fool's day so take what i am going to say with a pinch of salt. Or not. Nah. No point in writing anything jokingly. --- Cohorting, or the split-team arrangement as some would call, has began 3 weeks ago. The idea is the isolation and preservation of a team's medical status by placing an air-gap between the two teams. In no scenario should any one from either team meet members of the opposite. This will ensure that in case someone from a team is down and needed to be isolated, contact tracing can be performed easier and that backup can be done while the other team is isolated. The difference in the teams' behaviour varies from ability to meet external vendors, meal times and locations as well as work location. All to ensure that no one will violate the split-team arrangement. The past fortnight was a trial that presents week-long settings for the teams. One team would work at home for a week while the other will go to either an alternate office or simply stay...

The outbreak we currently faced is unprecedented... ...is what i thought of saying. However, experiencing SARS first hand when i was still a student and had months off school due to it, the scale of disruption still (to some surprise) boggles my mind. We were made aware of this virus since last year's final quarter yet somehow, most countries were still caught off guard. Suffice to say, they are paying the full price now. ...but what went out of control were mostly what can be controlled by the people. That is, their own expectations and reservations when it comes to resources. Nowadays, it's not uncommon to see toilet papers, thermometers, alcohol swabs and other hygiene products out-of-stock. I recall the first few weeks when the mandatory temperature taking was announced and i tried to find a thermometer. It's really out of stock everywhere. It might have been understandable if there are really that many people buying their own share of required medical aids but ...

3 months have passed since the last post. The situation for me hasn't improved. It really went full force towards the other end. Not just for me too. The world is facing a global pandemic and it has made its way into disrupting even our relatively small country. I'm guessing that when it happened last year in the last quarter, no one would have imagined that the scale of the pandemic would hit and match the situation about 16 years ago when SARS was a thing. ...but let's talk about the disruption a bit later. --- The year started very slow and boring for me. Since i did not submit anymore applications since last year's incident, i guess that is too be expected...though as a result of that it was rather unpleasant to just swim through the months without much of sidetracking. A lot of festivities were scaled down in view of the pandemic that was happening across the world. Even the annual lunches for the company were postponed indefinitely to reduce the amount...