Resolutions of Life

The course has officially ended. Back into the office. Onto my seat. I have to say that i am already enjoying myself much more even with the lack of ladies around me.

Who can really tell me that i know what i wanted when i chose to join? Myself. Who can really tell me that i am liking or disliking what i am currently doing? Me. ...so it feels weird that i was struck verbally twice today by superiors. The first, more senior guy, said that i should not join because i "had no other choice". That would have represented the doom of the organization. I really, really wanted to shout and just ask him if he had been jobless for 6 months in the recent years, with a non-specialized degree. I really do...but i would lose my job in an instant. At least, that's my guess of what would happen. The later part of the day sees a lady questioning what i said about why i chose the place to work in. My answer was more of a joke, that the place chose me, rather than it being a choice of mine. The lady claimed that she's worried for people like me...and i was the only one that was outstanding in a bad way. Again, i felt like i was being...

The course had started where a bunch of newly-hired people get together and learn about the service. So far the highlights were from the team building event held in the eastern part of the country. It really means that the return trip was particularly painful and took me about 1 hours before i got home. I didn't really do much on the first day of the event. Kind of regretted not participating in the activities since it honestly looked fun. Did more in the second day. Running, building and in a team. It was fun. I have to wonder though, if i can really keep up with the friendship for the next week. Time will tell.

I am beginning to take up more duties at work...but still not enough. It really sucks to be the bottom feeder of a team. It's not a position that i'm comfortable or used to. Unfortunately because i have no experience or prior knowledge of what i am doing, i am reduced to this state. I hope to do more. --- By a small twist of fate, my participation in courses has been brought forward. For the next fortnight, i will be having courses. Hopefully, i get to know more people that lasts.