Resolutions of Life

...that this day had came. I knew it'll be here someday but it is kind of hard to believe it. The final semester has begun. It will become more busy as my FYP comes to full circle. There will be things i have to give up...but most importantly, i have to go on. For the sake of the fallen, we carry on.

I woke up at 4pm today...a little bit dazed and my entire body aches. Actually, i woke up earlier at 10am....but hit the bed at 12 noon. I had the weirdest dream which i can remember rather vividly. It was an adventure with 2 other friends. One of whom i had the longest crush for and the other i cannot see the face clearly. We were travelling around and somehow found shelter in the middle of the woods. It was a concrete building with pretty much nothing inside but had a wide window looking out an open space. It was night time and there weren't any clouds in the vicinity. The moon was round and high up in the sky. We were just talking to each other while sitting around the table, which was beside the wide window. Suddenly, we notice that the moon became larger and larger. I realised that it wasn't enlarging in size, rather it was getting closer to us. The next thing i recall, there was a tower that rose from the ground that was the open space we observe. The tower bloc...

There are times where i feel nothing. ...well actually it's probably more accurate to say that i feel so much i became numb to everything. I see on social media everyday that people would lash out on each other, with any care or concern for whoever they are talking to. All because they wanted their point to be taken seriously. It's not always a good point they want to make. Most of the times, they want to let people know that they are just. That they are some form of symbol of justice. They would use a single incident of unfairness and strawman the hell out of it, making whatever interpretation they want...but the end is always the same. They will always try to paint it such that they are right and trying to help everyone out. They are also often so radicalized that no matter how you try to talk to them, they will deny your arguments. They will very quickly, put you on a side that is "against them". They see only 2 sides, for or against. The worse thing is t...

...so unlike the previous years, i didn't have an end-of-year or New Year's post. All i can say that for 2016, the first half of the year will need to be spent on my FYP. The latter half will be about finding and settling down in a job. Not going to be a fun year...but i'll have to see it through.