Resolutions of Life

'Twas the last day of 2016. 2016 has been a really hectic year for me. Crazy even, considering the kind of life i lead which is probably considered one of the most boring kind of life. In this year, i had experienced the entirety of my Final Year Project. It started out really well but started to crash and burn as the day of submission of my thesis came closer and closer to me. Things started to not work out. Ideas started to feel lackluster. Even my original hypothesis started to look like a pile of hot garbage. I recall briefly back in the past when i gave my presentation of my thesis. Questioned by, who i consider to be one of the best, a professor who took my project layers and layers of protection off. Enough for me to feel defeated. Enough for me to feel a little bit depressed. And in a few days time, defence of the thesis at the professor's office. Again i was educated. Again i was told that what i did wasn't actually correct. Yet when the results came, i m...

2016 is about to come to an end. In the majority of this year, 7 months, to be exact, i have been doing mostly nothing but looking for a job. I have since found one and signed a contract but am still subjected to certain medical clearances before i am able to start work. Hopefully, nothing major will occur to impede my employment. I will start work in 2 weeks time. At least, i will be able to make a claim that i managed to find work before the year ends. I've not been updating this blog as frequently as i've hoped to. You have to understand that when the majority of your time is spent on searching jobs and playing games to wait through the processing time, that does not make for interesting points to note them here. Hopefully, i will have more to speak soon. For now, tradition stands. I will make another post before the year comes to its close. Stay safe and strong, everyone.

Been really long since i last wrote here, considering what i have been doing. I've gotten a job offer, but it requires some waiting in order to clear the required procedures. I cannot wait to start working.

Let me start with January. --- Final Year project was well under way. I knew full well what the new year meant to the project. Unlike last year where the project was at the planning phrase and i had to do up questionnaires and quizzes for the students to solve, i've also read a good deal of research papers and theses in order to help prepare the writing of my own. The first week of the school was the slackest (Who knew?) but for me, i am required to follow up on the details of the students performances on my quiz. I am supposed to be able to derive some form of relationship between this particular quiz and a later midterm exam. On hindsight and retrospect writing this now, it feels crazy that i was able to pull a grade out of this project in the end. I did gave myself some break, a limit on the time i was allowed to finish my analysis of the results. It was also to take into account the later analysis of the midterm results. Unlike most other projects that my peers undertoo...

Well, it has been almost 8 months since the last post. I will make procedural posts about what happened in the period of no posts. Making this post hopefully to claim my stake here. Once more.

...that this day had came. I knew it'll be here someday but it is kind of hard to believe it. The final semester has begun. It will become more busy as my FYP comes to full circle. There will be things i have to give up...but most importantly, i have to go on. For the sake of the fallen, we carry on.

I woke up at 4pm today...a little bit dazed and my entire body aches. Actually, i woke up earlier at 10am....but hit the bed at 12 noon. I had the weirdest dream which i can remember rather vividly. It was an adventure with 2 other friends. One of whom i had the longest crush for and the other i cannot see the face clearly. We were travelling around and somehow found shelter in the middle of the woods. It was a concrete building with pretty much nothing inside but had a wide window looking out an open space. It was night time and there weren't any clouds in the vicinity. The moon was round and high up in the sky. We were just talking to each other while sitting around the table, which was beside the wide window. Suddenly, we notice that the moon became larger and larger. I realised that it wasn't enlarging in size, rather it was getting closer to us. The next thing i recall, there was a tower that rose from the ground that was the open space we observe. The tower bloc...

There are times where i feel nothing. ...well actually it's probably more accurate to say that i feel so much i became numb to everything. I see on social media everyday that people would lash out on each other, with any care or concern for whoever they are talking to. All because they wanted their point to be taken seriously. It's not always a good point they want to make. Most of the times, they want to let people know that they are just. That they are some form of symbol of justice. They would use a single incident of unfairness and strawman the hell out of it, making whatever interpretation they want...but the end is always the same. They will always try to paint it such that they are right and trying to help everyone out. They are also often so radicalized that no matter how you try to talk to them, they will deny your arguments. They will very quickly, put you on a side that is "against them". They see only 2 sides, for or against. The worse thing is t...

...so unlike the previous years, i didn't have an end-of-year or New Year's post. All i can say that for 2016, the first half of the year will need to be spent on my FYP. The latter half will be about finding and settling down in a job. Not going to be a fun year...but i'll have to see it through.