Resolutions of Life

Lo and behold. School's already ended. Last time i posted, it was only halfway through. Now i'm left with a mere week before the finals. Still there ain't nothing much to say. Honestly, who wants to listen to a university undergraduate whine about his work? I'm thinking of adding stuff here, sort of like a project or sorts but we'll see. This is not the proper time period to be thinking about these.

This week has been a week of defeats. It begins with the marks for Quantum Mechanics. I only barely passed the paper. Maybe a lot of other people were in the same range as i am, but i saw people with insanely high scores...so much for feeling good about it. Next was Solids midterms on Wednesday. It feels like of a challenge, but i hope i can at least pass too. Next paper was complex methods. It was really a bummer because all along the week i thought the paper will be on Friday, yet on Wednesday then i learnt that it will be on Thursday. I was totally caught off guard and i didn't study much because of the lost of buffer time to do so. The paper was really difficult as i expected but i just keep on writing gibberish as much as possible. Friday was lab evaluation, and i felt that i did it really bad. I got into a fair argument with the tutor about finer points of the experiment but eventually i could not reinforce my point anymore. I just let it go at that point. --- I...

Last post was at week 1 of school and now i am at the start of week 7 of the school term. The new subjects are biting into us. It feels like the same thing all over again the last semester, where people have no idea what professors are talking about and we have no idea how to catch up, but i am still taking things slow. Not too bad at it. --- One major gripe i have was experiments. I have this really horrible partner who is rather bad at experimental techniques. He also happened to be the only one who consistently bother me after the experiment for my analysis, which is supposed to be individual work...but the worst thing is that he's a friend and i can't bring myself to bring down the hammer. Hence, just unnecessary stress to my back. Also, people just started leeching me off assignments and solutions. Really lousy. It's people who don't talk to you for the longest of time, just came to you for solutions all of a sudden and then after that, you're out of th...

The first week of school passed rather peacefully. Maybe except for the fact that i got a little scared of the content we will be learning this semester. Days of studying after school and doing homework again is here. To be really honest, i haven't be studying as hard as i saw myself would a few months ago. I guess i'm a little relaxed in the sense that i'm not really into fighting numbers now. Learning that way is just wrong and really stressful. Rather, i'm letting interest drive me into studying instead of results. So far, so good. I guess that's all for now.

It is National Day today and what that means is also that school will be starting next Monday, although i have been going back to school to fulfill my reception job. Those 2 days were quite hectic for me in the sense that i have to deal with freshmen. They ask lots of questions, like we did last year. I suppose the school's still failed in its objective of proper dissemination of information to everyone. The second day was almost a testament of my stamina and mental strength. I worked from 9 am to 9 pm. That's talking working only with 4 hours of sleeping the previous night. Had to hand the freshmen their matriculation card and some freshmen package consisting of a notepad, some sticky notes and a school mascot plushie. Also heard that the freshmen this year will be given an Ipad Mini of their own. Wow. Work ended at 5 pm and i rushed off to my next venue: the tuition centre. Funny how my lessons that days were all relief classes. That would end only at 930 pm. I'm ...

A good 7 weeks had passed since the last post i made here. Nothing really changed much, except that i've went back to camp for my in-camp training. Saw lots of friends and had a rather fulfilling time to be honest. Only thing is i got really busy because of my new appointment and didn't really had much time to interact with my friends. I was hoping that i could just wake up every morning and go to the canteen and watch time pass. Unfortunately it wasn't the case. That also happened to to be the period when the haze hits out country really badly. I remembered having to go through some distance of the thick haze to complete some purchase for other officers. It really feels like my throat is only fire and the feeling gets worse with each passing second. Thankfully i got out of the training week in one piece, although i got down with a really bad cough that persisted even till now. Not sure why, but i'll have to look out for my own health since school is starting soon...

Results are out. On a very brief note, i did great. Or at least, by my own standards, i did better than my last semester. I didn't attend most tutorials, flunked my mid-terms, get A for my grading. That's how i roll~ On this, i found that the grading system is rather flawed, in the sense that when the weight of grades on the final exams are heavy, your efforts during throughout the semester will not really matter. At least for me, i am aware that i'm being a total slob during the semester and only get to serious studying at the last month. Somehow i managed to came out smelling like roses. We'll have some freedom with regards to module registration next semester. It seems like i could try and fit my Japanese Language level 2 in there somewhere, but the thought of all those higher-tier physics module along does make it seemed less viable. I am still not sure if we are required to take any mathematics module, hence i'll leave the decision to a later date. --- ...

In approximately 9 hours, the results will be released to us. I have been having somewhat of a few wild dreams and guesses about roughly what it will be. No matter what happens, remember this. Life goes on, even in defeat. That said, i don't mean that i will definitely be in the red zone...but i do want to get prepared for any possible unforeseen circumstances.

How's everyone doing? I hope anyone reading this is doing great or at the very least, doing fine. Exams were over about 2 weeks ago. My last minute revisions did wonders to the extent that i am confident enough to get As for my Physics modules. As for the Mathematics side, i had the feeling that the whole cohort is going to feel the same way as i did, that they are terribly weird in comparison to past papers, but overall i think i should be able to pass. At least, i hope so. Results will be out 2 days later and i'll update here once more. --- It's almost half a year gone and i realised that this is only the 3rd post of this year! Well, what can i say except that life in university was as tedious as it seems. Slowly this post is turning out to be a reflection for the start of this year. I realised that i haven't been paying attention to classes, although i was there and thought i was listening. I felt less inclined to skip tutorials and as a result my understan...

...and i told myself, that i would stay off FaceBook for 29 days. It did not work out in particular as there are things that got me distracted. Things like emotions and wanting to know more about this particular girl. I think i have fallen for her. It actually started out pretty long ago for me, but i only really felt like i had a chance a week ago when we did our oral presentation for one of our modules. This girl who i have an interest in just kept looking at me during her part of the presentation. Maybe i think too much. Maybe. Somehow through my life when people are giving speeches they also like to look at me. It's something i notice a long time ago...so maybe it is the same case here...but i am picking up other hints (If they are, that is). I am thinking of doing things drastic when the exams end...

People instinctively believed in an ideal world. A world where ideas and beliefs do not clash with each other. A world where only the person him/herself truly matters. A world where, as the person would think, if his/her own ideals were forced to everyone then there would be no war. No fights. No differences in opinions and hence progress will be ensured. I am an idealist. Looking back at my last post of last year, i realise at this point of time that i had really spun some big words back then. "Big" words. The first semester of this year was not particularly spectacular. As a matter of fact i would say it is pretty devastating, academically, that is. For the first time for quite some time have i felt so afraid of failure. Module content was so frighteningly foreign to me even when i am aware i have had prior experience in high school. The lecturers did not make it any easier. Most of the time i just can't understand what they are talking about. It feels as though...