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These words are within for a long time...waiting to be released...waiting to be spoken to the person whom it is meant for.

"

It has been a long time since we have any contact.

...and our last contact ended as what it seemed to me...a conflict. A quarrel. Something that probably will lead us to being strangers forever.

Yet i was the one who started it. I was the one who went too far out of his way just to earn your attention. I wanted to impress you. I wanted you to know that even till this day, 4 years since i have first confessed to you, you're still the one who occupied the space in my heart.

Because of what happened last year, because of what you said to me, i felt disappointment...as well as complete despair. After all, it made me feel that: "What did i devote my 3 years of life to? A pillar of false hope and anticipation." I was, from that day onwards, set determined to forget everything about you and just let it go.

But whenever i feel down and hopeless, your face is the first to appear in my mind. Memories of our times together were the only things i need to empower myself and go forth facing whatever challenges that is in my way.

This is no longer a search for answers, as i have honestly told you before. I no longer need answers to the purpose of my life or anything obscure and abstract about it.

It's clear to me, painfully clear to me.

Dear girl,

'I love you. I really do.'

Though i am aware that these words will never find their way to you...and that we will probably stay no more than strangers now...i hope that someday, just someday, you will at least know how i felt towards you. How i really felt towards you.

"

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You are the only thing worth fighting for.

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