Another update!
Major news: I have left my job.
I'll be honest, i left because of my own personal mentality, not because of my physical condition or the environment. Having said that, it's not as though the environment that is really suitable for working.
I have worked through a period of 7 days, some morning and some night shift. Basically i felt that i have in fact, learnt a lot about their process of working, moving and putting up goods, placement, arrangement and organisation. It was fun, i really enjoy a few moments there.
...but i am sure that when the dreaded time to idle comes, i'll be having second thoughts. It's funny how when i asked the more experienced people if there's anything to do, they only answered a simple "Don't know". When i did something wrong, i wasn't reprimanded and told the correct way of doing it, but they only let out a sigh, shook they head, then proceed to correct the mistake without taking time on telling how to do it. I personally felt that i was more a hindrance than a help there, one of the main reasons i left.
I do felt sorry when i left, i mean, there were really nice people there, like Auntie Susan. She would correctly guide me to do what i did wrong, and gave me a lot of help during my work time. Yet, i know that i will regret if i stay. That place is not suitable for a person like me, who use more brains than brawl in solving my problems.
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What i am thinking of doing are jobs that doesn't last for a week...odd jobs. They're more like errands, with monetary rewards, like distributing flyers, traffic surveying etc. I feel that, after this experience, i am not mentally prepared to work full-time (That is, 6 days a week). Some time, some day, i just felt like staying at home and sleeping through. I know that those are situations i will face in the future, but...i just can't find the right words to phrase this, other than: I'm just not prepared.
While working, i also wanted to learn as much as possible. I thought that: If i wanted to get into a specific kind of course in a university, i can start getting familiarized with the syllabus and start reading out. I'm particularly interested in Physics. No idea why, but i feel that Physics play a big part of our lives. I guess i can be called a fanatic in that sense, but i really like it (Probably because it is mechanical).
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Returning to school next week to motivate the graduating students. Somehow, the closer the date comes, the more nervous i felt. I'm a good impromptu speaker, recognised by a lot of people in my school, as well as teachers. I have confidence in what i say and how i say it, so much that even if i said something wrong and doesn't make any sense, i'm still able to convince people with my confidence. I only hoped that it'll work the same next week.
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I was wondering whether or not to do a Music Treat today...but nah, i'm a little lazy...even though i just woke up! I'll see you later.
Sometimes it just is not enough to say it. You must show it through your actions.
Major news: I have left my job.
I'll be honest, i left because of my own personal mentality, not because of my physical condition or the environment. Having said that, it's not as though the environment that is really suitable for working.
I have worked through a period of 7 days, some morning and some night shift. Basically i felt that i have in fact, learnt a lot about their process of working, moving and putting up goods, placement, arrangement and organisation. It was fun, i really enjoy a few moments there.
...but i am sure that when the dreaded time to idle comes, i'll be having second thoughts. It's funny how when i asked the more experienced people if there's anything to do, they only answered a simple "Don't know". When i did something wrong, i wasn't reprimanded and told the correct way of doing it, but they only let out a sigh, shook they head, then proceed to correct the mistake without taking time on telling how to do it. I personally felt that i was more a hindrance than a help there, one of the main reasons i left.
I do felt sorry when i left, i mean, there were really nice people there, like Auntie Susan. She would correctly guide me to do what i did wrong, and gave me a lot of help during my work time. Yet, i know that i will regret if i stay. That place is not suitable for a person like me, who use more brains than brawl in solving my problems.
---
What i am thinking of doing are jobs that doesn't last for a week...odd jobs. They're more like errands, with monetary rewards, like distributing flyers, traffic surveying etc. I feel that, after this experience, i am not mentally prepared to work full-time (That is, 6 days a week). Some time, some day, i just felt like staying at home and sleeping through. I know that those are situations i will face in the future, but...i just can't find the right words to phrase this, other than: I'm just not prepared.
While working, i also wanted to learn as much as possible. I thought that: If i wanted to get into a specific kind of course in a university, i can start getting familiarized with the syllabus and start reading out. I'm particularly interested in Physics. No idea why, but i feel that Physics play a big part of our lives. I guess i can be called a fanatic in that sense, but i really like it (Probably because it is mechanical).
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Returning to school next week to motivate the graduating students. Somehow, the closer the date comes, the more nervous i felt. I'm a good impromptu speaker, recognised by a lot of people in my school, as well as teachers. I have confidence in what i say and how i say it, so much that even if i said something wrong and doesn't make any sense, i'm still able to convince people with my confidence. I only hoped that it'll work the same next week.
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I was wondering whether or not to do a Music Treat today...but nah, i'm a little lazy...even though i just woke up! I'll see you later.
Sometimes it just is not enough to say it. You must show it through your actions.
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