When your hope turns into despair...
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I got a B for my Project Work.
A lot of people said that it's rather impressive, i mean, there are almost no As at all in our school. When i got the result, i just yell out in excitement. The rush of blood in my head is just so great i'm shouting and shouting and shouting.
Without a care for those who have fallen.
A lot of my friends are getting un-impressive scores. Coupled with their H1 contrasting subject grades, it is already impossible for them to go to the university.
Even one of my friend in my clique. Yeah.
Pity is that i don't know what to say to them. What am i supposed to say to them? I bet that anything anyone said just makes them feel worse. So i decided to leave them alone to cool off.
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What's funny comes after that.
I feel...disppointment...which is just weird.
I am prepared and confident that i can get a B grade or above, but when i knew that i got a B, i just felt that i am able to get an A.
My Subject Tutor, Ms N, told me that it was the fault of a slacker teammate. That i should have reported him last year, that i should have ruin his future without a care. That slacker got a C (Though everyone knew he can get a C because of my work).
I know i should, but at the cost of another person's future?
I dare not. A person's future is too much a price. No matter how i may hate him for not doing his work, i simply cannot. It's not like he totally did nothing, at least he did his presentation well.
Oh well, thanks to Ms. N anyway. I could not have even gotten a B without your help and advice, as well as my other teammates who pulled off a wonderful presentation. To me, our team is the best in our class in terms of presentation and dynamics. At least we don't have as much drama as some other teams.
Of course, not to sound obnoxious, i thank myself for burning a hell lot of Saturday and Sunday mornings for the written report and presentaion slides preparation.
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Appealing is an option for me, but i just do not wish for it.
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I got a B for my Project Work.
A lot of people said that it's rather impressive, i mean, there are almost no As at all in our school. When i got the result, i just yell out in excitement. The rush of blood in my head is just so great i'm shouting and shouting and shouting.
Without a care for those who have fallen.
A lot of my friends are getting un-impressive scores. Coupled with their H1 contrasting subject grades, it is already impossible for them to go to the university.
Even one of my friend in my clique. Yeah.
Pity is that i don't know what to say to them. What am i supposed to say to them? I bet that anything anyone said just makes them feel worse. So i decided to leave them alone to cool off.
---
What's funny comes after that.
I feel...disppointment...which is just weird.
I am prepared and confident that i can get a B grade or above, but when i knew that i got a B, i just felt that i am able to get an A.
My Subject Tutor, Ms N, told me that it was the fault of a slacker teammate. That i should have reported him last year, that i should have ruin his future without a care. That slacker got a C (Though everyone knew he can get a C because of my work).
I know i should, but at the cost of another person's future?
I dare not. A person's future is too much a price. No matter how i may hate him for not doing his work, i simply cannot. It's not like he totally did nothing, at least he did his presentation well.
Oh well, thanks to Ms. N anyway. I could not have even gotten a B without your help and advice, as well as my other teammates who pulled off a wonderful presentation. To me, our team is the best in our class in terms of presentation and dynamics. At least we don't have as much drama as some other teams.
Of course, not to sound obnoxious, i thank myself for burning a hell lot of Saturday and Sunday mornings for the written report and presentaion slides preparation.
---
Appealing is an option for me, but i just do not wish for it.
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