Perhaps i was over-simplifying things.
After my PW Presenatation, i kind of lose focus at everything. My studies, games and other stuff like that.
Something keeps distracting my mind, i thought it would be better to do just nothing.
I think, i'm only waiting for the end of this year to come. I had this thought, an obnoxious and overly-confident thought that things will definitely go my way. But perhaps it's just not as simple as i thought would be.
I'm living everyday without an aim, a cause, a meaning. I feel that, humans with a meaning in life, is no different from animals that we see around. That is how i felt really. I live everyday hating myself doing that, because i'm aware that i'm just wasting my life away.
But then again, a part of me actually loves it.
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2 days later would be my last paper of this year: Economics. After that, well, i'll just prepare for whatever is about to come.
I feel like screaming out loud, but there's little point to it when no one can hear you."
After my PW Presenatation, i kind of lose focus at everything. My studies, games and other stuff like that.
Something keeps distracting my mind, i thought it would be better to do just nothing.
I think, i'm only waiting for the end of this year to come. I had this thought, an obnoxious and overly-confident thought that things will definitely go my way. But perhaps it's just not as simple as i thought would be.
I'm living everyday without an aim, a cause, a meaning. I feel that, humans with a meaning in life, is no different from animals that we see around. That is how i felt really. I live everyday hating myself doing that, because i'm aware that i'm just wasting my life away.
But then again, a part of me actually loves it.
---
2 days later would be my last paper of this year: Economics. After that, well, i'll just prepare for whatever is about to come.
I feel like screaming out loud, but there's little point to it when no one can hear you."
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