I must say that i didn't expect a return. My life as a Year 2 student in the institute is a very busy one, as expected since the beginning of the year. Moreover, i chose to come back at the period of my Promotional Examinations. Similar to a trick i pulled years ago, but nonetheless, i'm still a sane person.
I guess 2 years...or just say 1 and a half years is a long period. During this period i was a...how do i say this...a person who does nothing seriously. Everything was a come-and-go basis, i would not go the extra mile to get a nice result.
Dreams, ambitions, goals. Things that's deemed important to almost everyone around me, but only worthless to me, and myself only. Perhaps that's why i have no drive, no ambition that motivates me to work hard.
An added reason may be due to talent. I found out that, in my school while others are struggling to pass their exams, i get through without much trouble. Sure, it's no fantastic result, not an A or even B. But this puts me at a height with enough advantage to get them...and i never did.
I'm the leader of my H1 Project Work Group, which is quite a crew. I have a slacker who is nearly absent always, an aristocrat who thinks he's a big deal but can't do much, and 2 other members who never understands what i says. I dare say, since the start of the Project, i have been doing nearly 70% of the work. That's is mainly because i know that if i hand it to others they will either give me a sloppy work or fail to submit in time. I will not deny the fact that i do not trust their abilities, however, this is something serious that cannot be delayed, especially the last-minute basis.
What i'm glad to say is that i have good evaluations from my supervising tutor and even from the other groups. I make a good leader. Pity someone from my own group never try to understand it. The same thing applies, they're pushing me to mobilise the rest of the group members, but i wonder if it's helpful when they cannot really give something constructive.
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It's different now. Very. Different. For everything in my life, it is about to change.
I do have a goal now. Just that it's way too personal i don't want to share it. Goals do motivate you to work. You'll also think of the other consequences that you'll have to face if you fail to achieve it...damn me for realising that only now.
I actually study for General Paper now, ever since i understand the paper requirements, which i only discovered only some days ago. The paper was...5 days ago...and i must say that studying for something that you think cannot be studied is good. I'm confident of what i'll get.
Now i'm grinding for my H1 Economics...i have to work hard...because i really want IT. So bye for now and back to the books.
I guess 2 years...or just say 1 and a half years is a long period. During this period i was a...how do i say this...a person who does nothing seriously. Everything was a come-and-go basis, i would not go the extra mile to get a nice result.
Dreams, ambitions, goals. Things that's deemed important to almost everyone around me, but only worthless to me, and myself only. Perhaps that's why i have no drive, no ambition that motivates me to work hard.
An added reason may be due to talent. I found out that, in my school while others are struggling to pass their exams, i get through without much trouble. Sure, it's no fantastic result, not an A or even B. But this puts me at a height with enough advantage to get them...and i never did.
I'm the leader of my H1 Project Work Group, which is quite a crew. I have a slacker who is nearly absent always, an aristocrat who thinks he's a big deal but can't do much, and 2 other members who never understands what i says. I dare say, since the start of the Project, i have been doing nearly 70% of the work. That's is mainly because i know that if i hand it to others they will either give me a sloppy work or fail to submit in time. I will not deny the fact that i do not trust their abilities, however, this is something serious that cannot be delayed, especially the last-minute basis.
What i'm glad to say is that i have good evaluations from my supervising tutor and even from the other groups. I make a good leader. Pity someone from my own group never try to understand it. The same thing applies, they're pushing me to mobilise the rest of the group members, but i wonder if it's helpful when they cannot really give something constructive.
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It's different now. Very. Different. For everything in my life, it is about to change.
I do have a goal now. Just that it's way too personal i don't want to share it. Goals do motivate you to work. You'll also think of the other consequences that you'll have to face if you fail to achieve it...damn me for realising that only now.
I actually study for General Paper now, ever since i understand the paper requirements, which i only discovered only some days ago. The paper was...5 days ago...and i must say that studying for something that you think cannot be studied is good. I'm confident of what i'll get.
Now i'm grinding for my H1 Economics...i have to work hard...because i really want IT. So bye for now and back to the books.
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