Resolutions of Life

I felt really lazy today, so i skipped school. I don't really know why, perhaps it's because it's a short day and nothing important will happen, so i didn't go. Or perhaps it's because today may be the last day for a decent rest until my national exams. Anyway, i just didn't feel like going today. I saw the new and revised timetable for our intensive revision. It's actually the opposite of what i thought it would be. Each day are really long and lessons are cramped to up to 4 periods at once. Just imagine sitting in a room listening to the Chinese teacher rant for 2 2/3 hours. That's how bad it is. The dismissal time is also very late, maybe a little early dismissal for some days, but overall it means that the stress that is tormenting us will continue for a while more. I hope that it won't be the similar case for the beginning of next year...just the beginning. It would seemed that our results are to be quarantined until the end of the promotional e...

It has been 2 weeks since my last post. My promotional exams are over, meaning to say that i can lay low for a while until my H1 national exams. Actually, i see the need to start working on my revision now. The end of the promotional exams would also mean that i have to start working on my Project Work again. Seriously, i am not really confident about the papers this time. Passing it shouldn't be a problem, but i probably can't achieve my target grades, despite the hours i have invested in studying. In the end, i can only blame myself for not trying hard enough, since i was playing around. I also am very irritated by people who keep telling you nonsense and stuff about them failing. From their tone, it's easy to tell that they are not trying to be humble, but demoralising you by being sarcastic. What's worst is, they actually may really fail the paper, so there isn't really any point in being sarcastic. ...and so i have a 5 day break from yesterday till next Tuesday...

Recently i just can't get myself to study, i don't really know why. Whenever i set my eyes on the notes i want to study on, my mind just drift somewhere else...so far away that i couldn't concentrate. I thought i made clear to myself of what i want...if so, then why am i still distracted? I did get some work done, though. In fact, it may be all i cared to pass. My economics. But after that, i did nothing else...close to nothing. I went back to school yesterday, going through Maths assignments. Questions i attempted to do, but just don't know how to. With the teacher's guiding, i know how to solve them. The questions are actually easy, i don't really know why i had trouble in the first place. I think i just didn't try hard enough. I took another look at the topics that are to come out. I had no idea whether to laugh or cry. The topics are easy, only with a few abstract topics like complex numbers and vectors, which is all the more reason i need to get back to...

I must say that i didn't expect a return. My life as a Year 2 student in the institute is a very busy one, as expected since the beginning of the year. Moreover, i chose to come back at the period of my Promotional Examinations. Similar to a trick i pulled years ago, but nonetheless, i'm still a sane person. I guess 2 years...or just say 1 and a half years is a long period. During this period i was a...how do i say this...a person who does nothing seriously. Everything was a come-and-go basis, i would not go the extra mile to get a nice result. Dreams, ambitions, goals. Things that's deemed important to almost everyone around me, but only worthless to me, and myself only. Perhaps that's why i have no drive, no ambition that motivates me to work hard. An added reason may be due to talent. I found out that, in my school while others are struggling to pass their exams, i get through without much trouble. Sure, it's no fantastic result, not an A or even B. But this puts...